The darkness of winter.

I’ve been doing a lot of avoiding lately. I think it’s a coping mechanism. I’ve been numbing, like mindlessly scrolling on my phone, lying in bed for hours, not even asleep. Just lying there.

I’ve been feeling pretty low, low energy, low motivation. My body and mind feel exhausted. I could sleep all night and I’m barely able to get out of bed in the morning. I don’t even feel the desire to get out of bed. Once, I get up its OK. I feel a bit better, but I crave naps. I haven’t felt inspired or eager to write or create.


It’s weird.

January has always been a tough month for me. I’m dealing with a wave of grief.

January is a weird month anyways. Social media is filled with inspirational quotes, resolutions, and why its going to be the best year yet!

Which is great and I know it’s going to be an amazing year. I am posting inspirational quotes too and I am dedicated to my intentions for the year. But, let’s get real. January on the East Coast of Canada is kind of hard on the mental health.

First of all, its dark all the time. I wake up its dark and I get home from work and its dark.

Second of all, it’s cold, windy, and slushy.

I know I am not the only one who is just feeling MEH. Like, I have definitely felt worse but I have also definitely felt better, ya know?

Anyways, I don’t really have a point. I guess my point is if you can relate to this YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

I am here.

I feel ya.

I am also feeling MEH.

I am also lazy and could sleep most of the day.

I am also having a hard time finding energy to do things.

Some things I have been making sure I do, even though I just want to lay in bed:

-Yoga: TRUE Yoga series by Yoga with Adrienne. AMAZING. Gives me a boost of energy and forces me to move my body and connect with the breath.

-Drinking water: stay hydrated, its #health

-Reading: currently still on The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are

Fresh air: its fresh, duh!

-Journaling: gratitude lists even just a few things I am GENUINELY grateful for, then I read over them and really focus on the FEELING of gratitude.

-Super Soul Sunday Podcasts Amazing. All of them.

-Your Own Magic Podcast: Listening to Allie and Raquelle literally elevates my energy and mood. Instantly feel light again.

-Be gentle. Think gentle thoughts about yourself. Don’t be so hard on yourself, we are all human. We all go through these experiences. Learn and grow from them.

-Talk to someone if you need to. Even if you feel like being alone in the dark with your cats, trust me. Talking to a close loved one or friend or partner or whoever really. Just chat, say it out loud, release it from the endless pit that is your mind.

It is only temporary.

It will get better.

We will see the sun again.



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